Well, everyone, now that I have gotten better at writing blog posts, and I am SURE you all hang on my every word...I am here to tell you that I am going to be gone for a few days. I am, in fact, going to spend a few days on the East Bay visiting with friends that I haven't seen since I graduated from Berkeley. In 1998. 14 years later, it is time for a reunion.
Of course, these are people I knew and were friends with back in 1998. When I was pretty much at my worst Aspie self. We three lived in Westminster house at UC Berkeley, and I wince, just WINCE, at my memories of how I acted during that time. Sure, I could blame it on being an Aspie and not knowing it, but see my previous post for reasons I can't give myself such an easy out.
So I hope and pray and thank God that grudges won't have been held over 14 years. And I thank God that these are people who KNOW I am an Aspie and will be forgiving. And I am sweating, hoping and praying, that I don't make a mistake. Please, oh please, let me remember everything I have learned about how to function in society and know what to say and have practiced and rehearsed so I can have fun and NOT be an idiot, upset or annoy people, act stupid, say the wrong thing, etc. Please.
And this SHOULD be a great, great time. Unfortunately, for the Aspie great times that include people are fraught. So I will pray, and I will be honest, and I will enjoy myself. And if it tires me out, it is part of the price I must always pay to be a normal, socializing person. You know what? It's worth it. It really is.
See you next week, mes amis!